Some more Christianity.

I've been thinking a lot about what's going on in my life lately. I look at all my fellow Mormon friends, and see how their lives are going. they have families that aren't divorced, they have strong bonds with siblings, parents, friends. They are getting MARRIED.

And here I am. I'm not too social with members, because I feel I don't share common hobbies and outside interests with them. Sometimes I don't feel good enough to be with them, or like I'm just not interesting enough, or maybe that I'm too intimidating, or that they sort of intimidate me.

Whatever I'm thinking though, I know I want to be a stronger Mormon. I have a lot of good things going for me. I've got an AMAZING job, I like to think I have a unique taste in music, and I'm a good leader when it comes to work (believe it or not).

I want to get married soon, I want a good family, I want to be an example to my friends, and future children, and I want people to not only know me as the guy who plays left-handed and flat-handed on IIDX, but as the guy with moral values and a good, inviting personality. I think I've done good with the latter, but I don't think anybody knows about my values as a Mormon.

I decided to take a small step today, by getting some more spiritual songs on my Ipod. I don't have any bad music, or anything spiritually damaging, but I need something a bit more spiritual and strong, inspiring. I'm feeling pretty good about it right now.

I'm also going back to the Robindale Ward, where I believe I'm zoned for now. Like the old days, huh?

This was a pretty intense blog post, IMO.